For some reason, I was very depressed yesterday. I felt like my life had no purpose and no meaning. I felt completely lost and I couldn't think of anything that brings me joy. This was strange to me because I am normally a happy person. I couldn't figure out why I was feeling that way until I got a chance to talk to my husband later in the night. Sometimes he knows my own feelings more than I do and can help me sort them out. He said that maybe it's because I keep hitting more bumps on the road. He's right. Every lead I try to pursue has lots of hoops to jump through and sometimes leads to dead-ends. I never had thick skin and I don't know how to handle rejection well. As a result, I felt like a failure and couldn't get past these road blocks.
It is not all bad news. There are little victories along the way and I just couldn't see it because I was too busy wallowing in my sorrows. Every sale I make is a tiny victory in itself. Every time I gift baked goods and bring a smile to someone's face is a good day. Last week, I was opening a business checking account and the banker who was helping me ordered 2 dozen macarons because she wanted to support me. Bless her soul. That was a good day.
I have been sending baked goods to my husband's work even before he started working there. I sent him off with two dozens fresh blueberry muffins to his job interview and till this day, his co-workers know me as the Blueberry muffin girl. The first day that I was open for business, his co-workers supported by placing orders. This week, his company decided to place a weekly order starting next week! This is a major milestone to know that I will have regular orders every week.
This goes to show that there are opportunities lurking in every corner, you just have to have the motivation and tenacity to keep trying. Don't forget to pat yourself on the back along the way for every small victory because you earned it. Don't be too hard on yourself when things don't always go your way. The victory will be even sweeter when things finally fall into place.